Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Dont cry because its over, smile because it happened

Well, as you all now know, the 3 hour GTT was normal... obviously a good thing from the health perspective... a bit of a bummer to our hopes of delivering early.

Now we will focus on making it through the next week... at this point, an early arrival would be a pain for all of us.
I have noticed that the baby has stopped her intense abuse of my internal organs and is content with mere squirming and pushing.
This is a welcome change (minus the times when, I swear, she is attempting to head butt my pelvic bones)

Today was our first (and only) non-stress test. They did a quickie ultrasound to measure fluid and everything looked great.
The doctor declined to check for dilation today, for fear of "stirring things up" prior to our planned induction next week.

This was a-ok with me because I am not a fan of this particular doc. His bedside manner died sometime back in the 80's when he probably should have given up practicing medicine ... he is older than dirt as it is. In fact, he probably has boxer shorts older than Baby Mama HAHA!
At least this visit he reviewed the file and didn't mistake us for lesbian partners... I was kinda sad to see that perception end, the possibilities for amusing myself at his expense were endless!

This may (or may not) be my last blog post before the big day.
I am currently musing over my reflections of the past 11 months. I am formulating a post-delivery blog post with these thoughts.
It should be pretty entertaining, so stay tuned!

On a sad note, we are approaching the 1 year anniversary of when Baby Mama and I reconnected.
It is bittersweet for me.
On January 14th, it will also be the 1 year anniversary of the unexpected loss of my sister-in-law, Sherri.
This week was the week we always spent making gingerbread houses and gift baskets to deliver to our friends.
We spent an entire week, decorating houses, baking yummy candies and pastries and completely destroying her kitchen.
I laugh to myself at how Patsy (my brother-in-law) would (half)jokingly complain about how we would make such a mess that the kitchen would likely never be found again.
I cry at the thought of the two years after Patsy's death that Sherri, Hayley and I made our goodies with tears in our eyes, knowing that we wouldn't ever again hear Patsy make his obligatory protests to our annual tradition.

Next year, I will continue the tradition and smile through my tears because I know Patsy and Sherri will be watching. Patsy will be shaking his head with a Bud in his hand and Sherri saying “Today is your day! Your mountain is waiting. So... get on your way.”

Sad endings, new beginnings....


  1. Love you, Dawn. Very sad endings indeed, and beautiful new beginnings.

  2. Dawne-- Best of luck in the last leg of your journey. You have selflessly given a priceless gift to the baby's parents. Sherri, Patsy and Ron will be watching you-- gleaming with pride!! Much love -- April

  3. I'll be thinking of you ..... awaiting the good news of the ejection of the leech ;).

    Your memories of Patsy and Sherri are gut-wrenching to read... it is obvious how much you loved them and miss them.

    May you have strong pushes ahead....
    Lots of Love

  4. Dawn,

    What an experience! I know Patsy & Sherri are smiling upon you, it is painfully obvious how much it still (and always will) hurt :( Much love to you.

    I hope your induction goes smoothly, it's quick and baby cooperates! What a blessed gift Danielle & family will be receiving :)


  5. You have been on my mind lately....especially since this is a season of giving. You will give this family the gift of a child and I would absolutely love to see the look on the face of those parents when they see what you have grown. I hope you are able to see that joy in them as the three of you celebrate this new life! You are amazing in my eyes and I am quite sure that you are in theirs too.
    Good luck during the delivery and recovery. Merry Christmas!

  6. I wish there was something I could do to ease your pain. Just know you have support and love from all your friends and family. Patsy and Sherri would be so incredibly proud of you, and I know they would be encouraging you every step of the way.

    You are one of the most kind hearted persons I know and I hope to be just like you when I grow up!